What now?

I have been wondering what to do with my blog. Whether to keep it up for a while? Let it mutate into a regular blog? I'm just not sure if I have it in me to make it an interesting read. It is nice to share and I can put some photos up...but I could also just do that on Facebook from time to time. Although my audience here are a bit nearer and dearer than the FB crowd. I guess it's still a good way give updates...but now it's easier to talk face to face about it!

Today I have an appointment to have my port flushed. I'm not looking forward to heading back into the chemo suite for this but it must be done. It's funny, the anticipatory nausea seemed to disappear with the end of chemo. I thought I might feel it when I was in there a month ago to get the bloodwork done but I guess since there is nothing to anticipate my body/mind has decided it needn't bother getting worked up about it! Good thing! Some of the chemo nurses told me stories about people being nauseous just driving past the hospital and when they happened to run into their chemo nurse out shopping or something! How would that make you feel as a chemo nurse..."It's great to see you...how are you?.....but you'll have to excuse me because the sight of you makes me want to lose my lunch?" I guess it's just an occupational hazard.

As many of you know I tend to be a rather tardy individual for most things. It's not getting much better with age. But there is one thing I seem to be able to handle doing on time....making the girls' Halloween costumes. I actually finished Avery's a week ago and Wynne's on Saturday night. Other than make up and hair (and a sparkly belt for Avery...they are ready to go! Maybe I learned my lesson Wynne's first few Halloweens when I did leave it to the last minute and it cut into the trick-or-treating time. Now that the girls are old enough to nag me...I have no excuse. I got the "did you work on my costume" question every day last week! I will post some photos here. Wynne actually said it was her favourite costume yet. It is very satisfying when you can make the idea they (and you) have actually come to life AND they love it!

My hair is growing way too slowly. I am impatient to ditch the hats and scarves but it will still be a while and I have decided that they design hats for people with hair....most hats look much cuter with hair poking out! I have been toying with the idea of incorporating my lack of hair into a Halloween costume but I'm just not sure it would be appropriate...or maybe just too scary for some! The front is still pretty short and seems to be coming in much slower.....I don't want a mullet! I may have to get it cut sooner than I think just to keep it looking decent. There are hairs that are almost an inch long but overall it's only about a cm....or shorter in front. Maybe I should get myself a good hair "tonic".

I have been working from home on Tuesdays and Thursdays...trying to keep regular 9:30-3:30 hours but am finding it hard to work here. I have no trouble getting started but it's the stopping I have trouble with. I can't switch my work brain off easily.....even when the kids get off the bus. The walk home from the office usually did that for me. The other problem is that we don't have an office. My laptop and reports are scattered about. I will likely head back into the office in November sometime. Although I likely get much more done at home without the distractions of being in an office. Once I start working here I am not easily distracted...I realize I haven't moved in several hours! Ergonomically working at home is not good!

I have had a few thoughts about whether consulting is something I can continue with. I am paranoid about stress levels. However, the part-time advantage, at the moment, outweighs all else and I am not likely to consider a career shift for a bit yet. I really can't imagine full-time work with all the kids' activities. I guess we just couldn't do it the way we are doing it now. I really don't know how some families do it!

On a final note..our lilac tree is still flowering. Now we have about seven small clumps of flowers. I am tempted to cut them and bring them in to enjoy the scent but they seem to be lasting so long in this cool weather!