One Third Complete; 8 more to go!

Chemo #4 (Cycle 2B complete!) I have to say that during chemo was the most unpleasant so far. After the pre-med Benadryl that wipes me out, I just didn't recover and felt pretty crappy until I got home around 1pm. Then it got better. Hung out on the couch watching Pride and Prejudice (all 4 hrs!! a gift from my mum and I just had to watch it all ....Colin Firth as Mr. Darcy is just so..well you know Colin Firth!!). I probably should have been sleeping but I just didn't fall asleep and maybe that's a good thing as I woke up at 4 or 5 am that night and couldn't get back to sleep.

Went to my 1 hr UW well-fit class today (a special program for people going through chemo run by the kinesiology dept) and actually beat the pace bike on my 20 min ride....I thought I was behind the whole way but it turned out I was ahead...that may explain it! Day 2 after chemo has always been okay I guess. My well-fit classes are Wed and Fri at 10:30am and are free for 12 weeks. They have tailored a program for me and monitor my heart rate the whole time. I'm hoping that it will help with my energy levels and you know just get me out and it's a small group and everyone is undergoing chemo so they are pretty meticulous about keeping the equipment clean and not letting sick people in. It's always easier to motivate yourself when you have an appointment. Once I got diagnosed in March I just stopped going to Goodlife...not sure why, I just got a bit unmotivated I guess and my normal schedule just disappeared because of appts etc.

I now think I know what may be hardest as the summer progresses; the psychological aspect of actually getting myself to chemo. I am already having these moments where thinking of sitting in the chair/bed and getting the stuff injected makes me feel sick just thinking about it, even if I feel just fine at that moment. I just have to focus on the fact that this is what will make me better! I can do this!

My hair is still hanging in there (as Steve likes to say). I would say it is about 1/4 thick as it use to be and kind of wispy....but it still covers my head! I have been wearing hats more often as I just can't do anything with it. I cut myself some bangs today so I had more hair around my face. The one thing I have noticed about day 2 after chemo is I wake up looking like I have a sunburn and a bit puffy and then it eventually dissipates throughout the day. So this morning my face needed help...thus the bangs :)

Thanks for all the birthday wishes...I had a lovely quiet birthday dinner with Steve (he made Pad Thai and a lovely chocolate cake with coffee icing), the girls and my mum. Steve and I also went out for dinner on Saturday to Bhima's....sooo soo yummy south-east asian food. We took the bus...yes really...and had a bottle of wine. For those of you who know Bhima's Warung....you know exactly how great it is. I have never had a meal I didn't love. I sort of overdid it and ate too much and regretted it a bit later. I just can't handle large meals very well right now.
Well off to bed...hopefully the exercise today will help me sleep better tonight!